September 3rd, 2016
(written by lawrence krubner, however indented passages are often quotes). You can contact lawrence at: firstname.lastname@example.org
Have there been good movies on this theme?
Why so few good shows for television or Netflix?
Some stories are written by those from the inside, but they never seem to get wide attention. Why?
It’s sort of like 50 Shades Of Gray. There have been hundreds of great novels written about BSDM. How is it possible that such a terrible novel carried BSDM into the mainstream? Why not one of the great novels? What is it about BSDM that the mainstream only accepts the worst works?
The Girlfriend Experience did one thing well: it dosed me with a familiar emptiness by showing me how I have grasped at love when I was scared that I would fall for another ghost, a liar, a fake.
How do we know when we are pretending?
Is real love what happens when the 36 questions are answered with eye gazing and hand holding, or is real love what writer, professor, Steve Almond calls, “Sustained attention ending in eventual mercy?”
Years ago, I kissed a Marine. My boyfriend at the time said he no longer loved me so I moved out. I wanted to hurl my car over a cliff every day, mostly because he was on the lease. So I stopped driving until I ran out of cat food and it was time to go back to Desert Showgirls. I met Chris, a 42-year old fully decorated Marine tanker who’d been to Afghanistan many times. He lifted me up and held me so firm and strong, I felt small and shielded from the war raging in my gut. After we kissed in the red, black club and again in a nearby coffee shop, he promised to write. Six months later, I saw him on CNN. It was Thanksgiving. He said hello to his kids and his wife. He never wrote.